-applying stuffs-

which has been my activity throughout this semester

be it applying for my fabricated glasswares and chemicals
or applying for positions from my potential future employer

*sigh*
getting through my way into the final year has already got me into my nerves
thinking that i have to complete multiple tasks and projects
under minimal supervision and time-stricken condition
there are times that i lost my cool

but then of course
that is the goal of being a final year student

one must learn to strive through the hard times
balance emotions
maintain stability and state of mind of course
capable to become that hundred-hands-goddess
get the job done and still have the time for retail therapy

despite all that chaos
i seemed to enjoy it
i love being in the fast lane
struggling in the rat race world
being teleport here and there in a blink of an eye

it gives me this rush of adrenaline
it excites me
suddenly it became my cocaine
and i am so addicted to it

although it's tiring and really sucked half of the energy in me
i am still enjoying it
and i am going to until i have no more energy for the junkies

it gave me fears and shivers at the beginning
but towards the process
it is enjoyable