-someone by the window-

i'm pissed
not that people did something revolting towards me
its just that i'm pissed

i know that those who are around me
love me
care for me
and look after me
but still
i am pissed!

i may not be that angelic kind of lady
and i am not that devil-ish either
but i still have my common senses

i may have been that kind of social person
who loves to mingle around my deary
and cuddles
those acts that they watched and see unwillingly
had driven them mad
and revolting

i know it is inappropriate for me to do so
but the hot blood of teen that flows inside me
is kinda hard to reside
because what?
i am not that angelic
not that i don't want to become one
and change to become one
it's because i don't want to change abruptly for the sake of other people
i refused to do so to please community
i refused to do so to stop people peeking out of the window

whence my mom know how her rebellious daughter is
she let me go with the flow
which seems to work
because she knew that her daughter do not listen to advices
because she knew that hew daughter is a rebel
when she let her off
she'll come back to the right place

so this entry is dedicated to those who love to lurk out of the window
reminding me that Someone is by the window (which is obvious to me,and i know that without been told to)
it's not like i oppose advices
i welcome them
i welcome critics as well
i welcome thoughtful thought,opinion and point of views
but i welcome not "soft-so-called-bits-of-thoughtful-stories-that-have-moral-of-the-story"
to be my reminder
i oppose the idea of advising me to become a better person
because i rebel
i mock those who shot the words towards me

i mock people back
don't try my limits
i am not a faker
when i happen to dislike things and person
and i am unable to tell
i'll show

i am sorry that i am no pleaser