-pat on me back-

i think i shall deserve a pat or two on me back
not that i demand for a creditation
or a worldwide acknowledgment
but i shall give myself a pat or two

for i really put my neck on the line
this past few days

i did not have a really splendid weekend
although i have the chance to chill at a waterfall
along with the blue lion
but for the whole time on last weekend
i managed to increased my stress level limit
and put up with a neck sore throughout
(my neck sores every time i'm in tensed moments)

but i managed to type my paper
one whole paper that is
along with an abstract
although i am a known sucker in writing
and i know it very well that i am not capable in articulating my papers
my ideas were flowing out wildly
but my brain and cells coordination are really bad
that none of them synchronize during writing
thus,as a result
a god-damn-boring-i-have-no-frigging-idea-what-the-heck is this paper trying to portray

yes.....
it is that bad
well,for me it is
since i know that i can speak and deliver speeches well enough to be understood
so i really do hope that my writings really gets into the readers
my panels and supervisors that are

*sigh*

and i am supposed to be a well educated bright final year student

*blueeekkk*

it is frigging annoying me
that the idea of me being such a low rated writer in papers
not just any paper
it's my final year project that i'm babbling about!
my well delivered speech is not a guarantee for me to get all A's
it's what i put on papers that is!

i have so much improvements to do
i have to devour the whole dictionary if i have to
indulge the words
digest them
and come up with an excellent, well writen and articulate paper completed with all those technical terms, verbs and vocabularies

*whew*

boasting is sure easier
pat some more on me back

*pat*pat*