-end of year havoc-

haish~~~~
i have been on and off writing and babbling here in my virtual space
not that i actually stopped writing
i never did
but it just that i felt my writing becoming way dull than it ever been
see???
even my grammars are running all over the place now

anyways
december arrived in a blink of an eye
really didn't realize that 2009 is nearing its end
with this year coming to its end
there are sure heck of activities going on
i had been busy for the last two weeks
juggling work at the office and work at home
not that i'm turning to a housewife
but my family are going to transfer to our home sweet home

Home Sweet Home!

okay~~~
it doesn't look like much of a house as yet
but it will be furnished and bling bling cleaned in few days
or so i hope!
and yes!
finally....my family get to live in our own house
not that we are homeless all these years
but with the nomad habit of my family
it's hard to get a house of our own

oh well
i hope things go well for the house and the transfer
there are heaps of workload to do
but i am optimist things will turn out fine
i always look on the bright side of life
why bother to make your life dull right?

oh ya....
forgot to mention
currently i'm actively job hunting for another job
not that i hate the job i have now
but i despise the people i have to confront everyday in the office
i'm only 23 with a fresh, young and vibrant look
i want to stay and look that way
i don't to age faster with the kind of reluctant i have to feel every single day
if you happen to know a friend of a friend of a friend
who have a contact of his friend of a friend that needs new recruit
just drop me the bombshell ya~~~ =)

okay....
enough with the whatsoever mumbles
i'll see when will the next entry be

-blog cleaning-

crap!

-wipe-wipe-

when was the last time the author stopped by and actually cleans this blog?
the dusts would be 3 inches thick around this time -literally-

wow....
it's fascinating isn't it?
december is here already
it seems like yesterday when i waved my friends and my bluelion goodbye at the campus (note: i didn't even get the chance to see my blue lion on the last day on campus okay)
even now that i started working
i've been busy looking for other jobs
how i much wanted to throw myself into action
and acquire technical skills
i really loved my engineering degree you see
it's not easy to get let alone to gain
i even failed few papers first before i actually graduated with second class upper

did you remember how ecstatic i was
when i was accepted as the permanent staff
just within very few months
my ecstatic and euphoric feelings declined greatly
i even suffered from major gastric pain for one whole week because of the company's management team
and i had never been so much determined to actually get hooked on another job
hopefully somewhere in the peninsula
i guess i'm the type of people
who really likes to jeopardize my harmony and easy going life
and throw myself into a rat race world
well...it's the disadvantage to be young and wild

anyways...
wish me well
on getting another job
by end of this year
i really need to get out of this crappy job i'm doing now

-remisnicing-

i hadn't been much of writer lately
maybe it's the workload or the time
or it's the feel and heart to write kinda fade bit by bit
i really hope not the last reason

i couldn't really blame on the workload
because if it is the workload
i wouldn't be able to surf the net even for a second
i seldom give excuses
i only give excuses when i seriously do not have the heart to do anything or go anywhere

i've been adjusting myself in working life for few months
though the company has not yet expand into a bigger and grander organization as it supposed to
i somehow managed to get myself entangled with various kinds of office politics
and dang it!
it ain't fun or great T_T
oh well~~~
i was going to write some more
but i have some work to settle first
let this be first part of the story
i have to keep it mysterious enough for it to be interesting
i'm not that excellent in writing okay~~~
okay...let's end part 1

abruptly.

-BCCK-

no~~~
that ain't any abbreviation for any boy bands thought it has that kind of commercial value
it stands for Borneo Convention Centre Kuching
what i would like a sister to KLCC
but very grand in a way
though its location is not really that strategic
but it's grand because it has spaces to 'park' yacht!

oh~~~
why am i so excited tell tales about BCCK?
i will be spending a couple of days maybe three down in BCCK
will be joining the company in Malaysia Global Business Forum
it's a grand event since it involves two countries
Bosnia-Herzegovina and Malaysia
Sarawak is the host this year!

and what excites me more
my all time idol will be attending the seminars and round table sessions
it's Tun Dr Mahathir Mohammad we're talking here!
so far...i have no luck as yet meeting him face to face
i'd really love to at least catch a glimpse of him
i adore that man
be it a 5 long hours speech
i would be listening eagerly and intensely
though i don't really read much of his papers and books
but i followed his blog
and i really anticipate moments at BCCK
who knows i'll have much luck meeting him or watching his back from a far T_T

about the forum
it's a big event and you can have much more info here www.malaysiaglobalbusinessforum.com
this is only the preview
i'll be making sure to snap pictures all the way
and post it on facebook =)

anyways
been so long since my last post
i spent much time blog reading nowadays
and only blog here when i'm to ecstatic about something
this being one of it =)
will be coming over soon

-membunuh masa-

i've been feeling more settled and calm after few days
guess i finally found my resolve
and i do hopefully my resolve is firm and stronger than ever
i am still however
looking for opportunities to broaden my horizon
for heck i'm not one person who can be tied to my homeland at all times
i will venture out whenever i can

i have words to keep to my friends, colleagues and family
as well to my Mr Blue Lion
do have faith in me and my determination

anyways...
after frequent traveling within these few weeks
and after the ground breaking ceremony in Tanjung Manis
i sure have a lot of time to spare
lots of time to chit chat
to chat
to surf
to blog
to laze around
and i have to blame the frequent traveling
because it's been quite hard for me to be really in the working mode
my mind is still there in KL, Kuantan...lingering with my dearest blue lion and friends

-sigh-

hopefully i would be in full working mode next week
i have import licenses to apply
and it is painstakingly took too much time and effort
i even had to postponed one appointment due to my laziness this week!
dang it!
ain't so good huh~~~

oh well....
would be in full sprint next week
that's why i dropped by today to talk about rubbish
and to clean the web-cobs around my virtual lair
fuh~~fuh~~

-wipe-wipe-

since i don't have anything interesting to share with you lots
i'll just stop talking rubbish here

p/s: mr ak....i skyped with my ever dearest blue lion at nights =)

-antara cinta dan cita-

aku pernah katakan pada seorang teman
kiranya aku ingin jadi seorang novelis
ini akan aku jadikan judul novel pertama aku

kian lama sudah aku sepi dari dunia virtual aku ini
ada tika aku punya ide tapi tidak punya masa untuk coretkan segala
ada tika aku punya masa tapi tidak punya jiwa untuk mengarang
ada tika aku hanya sekadar menjengah membuang sawang dan habuk di ruang virtual ini

aku agak berada di persimpangan tika ini
selalunya seorang aku sentiasa tahu apa yang aku mahukan
sentiasa optimis dan oportunis untuk makin maju ke depan
tapi kebelakangan sudah
aku rasakan diri aku semakin hilang motivasi diri
terasa akan jiwa semakin menjauh
asbabnya?
kerana cinta dan cita

pasti ramai yang akan melabel aku seorang yang bodoh kerana bisa jatuh melutut dan hilang waras akal hanya kerana perkara seremeh cinta
tapi apa bisa seorang gadis seusia aku untuk menepis segala gelodak rasa dan perasaan
aku tahu apa aku mahukan dalam masa 2 tahun ini
aku mahu ambil dan cedok segala apa ilmu dan selok belok dunia pekerjaan peringkat global dari syarikat antarabangsa ini
aku mahu dapatkan segulung ijazah
aku mahu meneroka peluang kerja di tanah semenanjung sana

tapi untuk seketika
pendirian aku agak goyah
kerana hati dan jiwa aku begitu memberontak untuk sentiasa dekat padanya
untuk sentiasa berada di sisinya
bukannya aku tidak pernah mengatakan kata-kata ini kepadanya
empunya diri lagikan faham kehendak dan kemahuan aku
cuma aku yang terlalu ligat memikirkan apa yang sebenarnya dimahukan oleh seorang aku

sepertimana kata sang hujan
mencari konklusi
aku masih dan sedang mencari konklusi untuk konflik dalaman yang aku sendiri reka tatkala masa dan ruang diberikan pada aku
betapa aku benci untuk duduk diam seorang diri
betapa aku benci suasana yang begitu hambar dan sunyi
kerana situasi itu yang membuatkan aku sentiasa 'berfikiran tenat'
hingga membuatkan jiwaku cukup tenat

aku sedang masih mencari konklusi
dan padaNya juga aku berserah dan mohon
untuk ditunjukkan jalan kepada apa yang dimahukan dan ditakdirkan untuk seorang aku

jiwa...tenanglah engkau untuk sedetik waima pun
biar aku punya ruang untuk berbicara dengan lebih halus untuk aku dengarkan apa yang engkau cuba jeritkan pada aku yang mungkin sedang tuli ini

kekasih hati...engkau kan sentiasa ada untuk aku kan?
sentiasa ada untuk menerima segala cacat cela dan kekurangan seorang aku kan?
bisikkan pada aku wahai kekasih walaupun kita jauh beribu batu, dipisahkan oleh laut china selatan pun
hati kita tetap kan jadi satu bukan?

-2009 convocation-

it was 3rd of October 2009
i exchanged hand shake with Tengku Mahkota Pahang
and flashes of cameras are everywhere
i was supposed to be extremely happy on that very day
i was happy
but not ecstatic

there are so disappointments during the day
i disappointed many people whom i loved
i even disappointed my ever dearest blue lion
this is my word
i would make it up to those whom i disappointed on that day

just so you know
i would try to attend another convocation for master degree
and hoped to be with all those friends and dearest blue lion on the day
i don't want another disappointment

anyways....
happy graduated UMP-ians
i wish you lots well
and i do hope to see you all again
do keep in touch

-salam eid mubarak-

i know it has been some while since my last post
not that i grew tired of composing my bits and pieces of mind
but i'm still adjusting and adapting to work life situation
and since these two months are crunch hour
i hardly have the time to compose here in my virtual lair

all in all
today is friday and eid mubarak is 1 1/2 half day away
but i'm still in the office (violating the internet service again)
will only be driving back to kampung tomorrow in wee hours

anyways...
salam aidilfitri to all
to my dearest blue lion, MSMN:
"love you with all my heart.may this Syawal witness the strength of our relationship.though you maybe 1 hour 45 minutes flight away, you are always on my mind 24/7.salam eid mubarak to you deary.mohon ampun dan maaf kiranya ada salah dan silap,terkasar kata, tersilap kata,buruk tingkah laku.love you lots"

to my nino, Ecah:
"dearest nino, sorry for not being able to wish you earlier.guess you might be at the kampung already this time.but anyways, missed you much too.may this Syawal bring you even more happiness and success in life. thank you for being there for accepting me, the bad and good ones. happy eid mubarak."

to Emma and Hanis:
"yo ex-room mates...missed the two of you a lot!may this Syawal bring out the best of you lots.take care and enjoy the moments with your family.happy eid mubarak."

to my UMP-ian friends:
"dear all...though i know i'm can be such a pain in the neck but i am glad i know you lots especially those who spent 4 years in the same classroom with me.it broke my heart that i couldn't make those delicious kek lapis for you lots.i've been enjoying doing them for you lots.now that we are walking into individual paths, i do hope that somehow we meet in whatsoever junction in life.though we are far apart, this friendship that we forged would last for life.happy eid mubarak to all."

to my lecturers:
"i had never regretted being enrolled into UMP.though i detest it so much before but now i am so thankful that i'm UMP product.i hoped i made you proud. and i am really thankful for bringing out the best in me.happy eid mubarak to all."

-l.a.z.y-

i am not quite sure why
but i am feeling rather lazy today
has been a lazy bum since morning after sahur

even my brain refused to think more than 5 minutes at one time today
and i took longer time to actually digest each conversation i had today
as the assistant manager said: "not good~~not good~~"

i made a fool out of myself this morning in the office
with such unique and stylish way
i cracked open one of the switch plug in the office
not in usual and normal way
but i accidentally bump hard on the plug with my bum
=(
my office mates have been cracking butt jokes in the office whole day
oh well~~~
luckily most of the staffs here are young ladies

-aanouncement-

fuh~~~
it has been some while since my last posting
but i've been in such tremendous workload in these few weeks
just got back from seminar last two days as well

anyways
tit bits for all
-announcement 1-
muslim will start fasting TOMORROW
welcome ramadhan!
happy fasting to all

-announcement 2-
i did a lousy job in preparing my industrial training report
and i did it in 2 days
my lecturer came this morning and evaluate me
i hope i impressed her as much as i impressed my boss here
but all goes well and i'm glad

-announcement 3-
remember in my last postings i mentioned something about the unpublishable news?
now things are confirmed
i can announce it now
ladies and gentlemen
friends from afar and near
i am officially a permanent staff here in sea party technology co ltd
and will be in charge of our subsidiary company-sea party microbes sdn bhd
my first task now is to ensure my parents will have the taste of my first salary
=)

all in all people
i might not be able to blog as much as i want too this august and september
i would be in a real busy situation
but rest assured
i will not abandon my lair
it's my escapism
anyways
have a great fasting month ahead

-sunday-

i believe that i have a blessful life
though i am not a good daughter to my parents
but i am still trying to be one
thus, i believe i am blessed by them
though i am not a devoted muslim
but i am still striving to become one
thus, Allah made my life easy when i find life's hard at times

it was a hot and dry sunday today
woke up at 8
spend an hour in front of the tv while waiting for my housemates to wake up
but they decided to sleep in this morning
then i crawled back to bed and stayed dreamy until 10
when i was finally up and all cleaned up
i was so ready to do some houseworks
then the phone rang

it was from the office
it was from my assistant manager
and she told me to get to the office for the big bosses will be having meeting at 11
and being someone who owned no car whatsoever
i rushed out home to the bus stop hoping that i won't be having hard time getting one
and i thank Allah so much for there was a bus by the time i reached there

upon arriving at the office
helped to get things ready and done
i even have to keep telling myself that it was sunday
and TOMORROW i will have to come to the office
stayed in the office until 2
good thing was...
the hawt big boss even gave me some lunch money
which makes me adore him even more
i do hope i am eligible for overtime
didn't even thought that the big guns in the office have faith and believe in me
at times they do rely on me
which is a burden and pressured me hard
but i find pleasure in my works
i guess i managed to show them my interest in working there seriously and permanently

two of my superiors laughed at me today
they said i will be having one new assignment tomorrow
and they said it won't be easy
i take that as a challenge
it pumps my adrenaline when one under estimate me
it makes me eager to prove what am i made of
iron and steel.....(literally)
oh well....
had a great sunday
though it was not a sunday i was planning to have

but still
it was great
for the hawt big boss looked damn gorgeous coming into the office in casual wear
way casual for a boss
let us anticipate tomorrow

-123456789-

at exactly 12:34:56 on 7/8/09
we experienced the '123456789 moment' or so i called it
i didn't noticed that
but my assistant manager did
and for sure it is a moment we will never experience again
not more in this life
it is an unique moment
don't you think so?

today was chaos
arrived early this morning
helped to get the brand new projector running
also helped the office boy to put up the slide for the projector
then rush in and out of the office to get things
mineral water, cakes, papers, tissues
all were readied in thrills
all was done in a blink of an eye just to welcome a VIP to the office

at this moment
the VIP, investors and big bosses are still discussing matters in the meeting room
thus, i have to pretend that i am busy doing my 'work'
here i am
'busy' updating my blog
of course i have to hide the window every now and then
every time the big bosses and the VIP passed by behind me
i have to keep acting busy doing my 'work' every now and then as well

but still
i enjoyed today greatly
me and the assistant manager even asked the whole staff to act casual
for the two of us arranged a surprise party for the PA
she was taken aback and speechless with the surprise
didn't see it coming at all
but it was great!

even my hawt and gorgeous big boss from taiwan gave her a birthday present
i envy her for that
not because of the surprise party
but the ladies in the office has been heels over heads for the hawt and gorgeous boss
me of course being one of the ladies
but mind you....he's only the nice to see but not to touch item
=)

all in all
it is a superb day today
didn't even mind coming to work tomorrow
i know it's saturday
but i find pleasure in my work and that is why i enjoy every second of it
be it highs or lows
hope you lots too dear friends

-new look-

put up a new look
love it for it is red

this morning was chaos
i was in the bus on my way to the office
it was only 7.35 in the morning
and i got a phone call from the boss' PA
i thought it was a typical let's get together for breakfast
but boy i was wrong
the phone call was to inform that YB is coming in for a meeting at EIGHT o'clock
i was taken aback by the news
since i'm in the bus, i can't be demanding the bus driver to skip all of the stops until it reaches my stop

oh well...
after all the rush in the morning
we all finally settled down
and off to work
in which....i have to say
i have no urgent work to do today
had one this morning but got it done in moments
now it is almost noon
i am famished!
the smell of laksa sarawak lingers in the office
i think i can taste it right now
yeah~~~
i am that hungry and hunger for food....

be this half an hour good to go in a blink of an eye

-eerily calm-

now it seems clear
the reasoning for such a calm office though the date for the HUGE event is near
we were informed that we will be going this friday
dang~~~~
it was a lie
it was postponed
AGAIN!
since day one i reported in
i've been getting the news about the company's event
that was in june
it's august now
and there are no confirmation on the EXACT date as yet
still keeping my fingers cross

-sigh-

-out of town-

it's supposed to be a seemingly busy day at work today
just had confirmation from the top guns
that the ground breaking ceremony for the production and processing plants will be taking place this 10th august
upon hearing the news, we should scramble off to get works done
phone calls have to be made, confirmations have to be made, bookings have to get done

but it is eerily calm and relaxing in the office
even the clock ticks rather slowly ever since morning
and my tummy grumbles way louder than it usually does
i was supposed to go off to tanjung manis this friday for heaven's sake!

oh well....
lately, there has been some kind of frictions in the office
not only i have to face frictions between my sister at home
i have to face some different kind of friction in the office
details?
i'll publish some other time
i just want to ramble how calm and relax the office is today
when everyone should be scurrying around to get things done
it worries me
because this is not a large event but HUGE
the ministers are coming down
the press will be preying for news
the public will be storming the area
i'm talking about a HUGE event which involve not hundreds but THOUSANDS of crowds

hmmm....
deep down, i do hope that the camera will catch a glimpse on me
who knows i have that split second on air
ahahahaha~~~
anyways, i anticipate to travel
and hope all goes well and things are confirmed and we're good to go
if so....do tune in to buletin utama,tv3
^_^

-groggy-

it's almost 3 o'clock
had my lunch an hour ago
and i'm feeling groggy
i need match sticks to keep my eyes open wide
i think i'm half awake
these kopiko sweets made me groggier
it's friday and i'm groggy
i think i'm half awake
and i have papers to read through and finalize
i'm feeling groggy
this grogginess doesn't make my evening any easier

-_-

-hisashiburi~~~-

gomennasai minna~~~

i haven't been a frequent writer here
i even don't have the chance to blog hopping like i used to do
-sigh-

the workload at the office kinda piling up these few weeks
though i have the time
i do not have the inspiration to type
tonight i had to force myself to type
before some people label me as 'hot hot chicken shit'
ahahahaha

anyways
i had some busy time last week and extra busy day today
in which i did not see it coming
in that very office
when i have no whatsoever work to do
i can 'farm' at facebook all day
but when there's work
i didn't even notice how fast time flies
-sigh-

but i had some great moments
some are not
and i even got into this stupid argument with my sister
in which i still find it rather stupid and amusing at the same time
but it bonded us tighter together
i always wish the best for her anyway
but we got over the stupid argument and finally succumbed the very fact that we both are idiots who are so incapable of untangling some simple knots

i might be having another busy week
received some words from the parent company in taiwan that the ground breaking ceremony would be sometime in august
but i don't hope much
those are some assumptions and speculations
but my very big boss and the hawt one will be coming in thursday
and i am so thrilled!
though it means another workload but heck
the hawt very big boss is coming
who cares?

ngeeee~~~~

p/s: congrats congrats to my superb supervisor cum PA cum lecturer for being a dad!

-i am back-

phew~~~
i finally made it here tonight
many thanks for my sister for lending me her broadband (bought it with MY money actually)
yes...
i soon came to realize that i can seriously blog and blurt everything out here when i am all alone in my bedroom
i have all the privilege of being alone and without the curious eyes that kept lurking over my shoulders every time i type things ever so seriously

right now
i am in a therapy...music therapy actually
while my fingers keep on dancing frantically over my ever so elegant white keyboard of my grand lenovo
call me psychotic whatever for this is my first time that i can finally have my very own laptop
but then, it's an old news now

i forgot how many weeks since my industrial training started
but i do know that i have report to do and submit
and which i have NOT start a word on
-sigh-
of course i'm worried but i have too much work in the office
i even brought my works HOME!
which trainee would do that?!
ME!
my supervisor and superiors in the office treat me like a permanent staff for weeks
and i have been dealing and entertaining international clients,manufacturers and suppliers
i am impressed of whatsoever i got myself into
but then
all of those are worth it
my final year project and plant design really helped me a lot
so does my PME and entrepreneurship subjects
it is my privilege being student from a university not known to many others

anyway~~~
enough with the compliments
i will be a lot busy this week
since i have to entertain 3 major suppliers from 3 different countries
luckily i managed to keep my sanity dealing with these suppliers
and remember the client from korea?
he's busy in saudi arabia until next week
so i have much time to entertain the other two

oh yeah~~~
i almost forgot
i took a leave last saturday
i did tell i WORK on SATURDAY as weel right?
but heck...took a leave last saturday and went back to my hometown
sri aman...a small town,3 hours drive from kuching
2 days in kampung was magnificent!
i am so proud that i have a kampung!
even the cocks and ducks amazed me
dang it~~~
now i accidentally? blurted out the secret? that i took a leave
ahahahaha
oh heck~~~

anyways
i guess i bored you lots
let's meet some other time

-entri hari ini-

actually i don't know what should i entitle this entry
so i put just that since that is the only thing that came across

anyhow...
let me tell you how fabulous this week has been
remember i told you about the speech that i have to make for my very big boss
the founder, the godfather of this company
he was HERE in the office couple of days ago
and i was taken back by his appearance
i have to this out loud
he is damn hawt for a guy of his age
must be the chorella and collagen effects
but still he was superb!
and i actually had the chance to exchange few words with him
and during the conversation, i forgot to breath
because when i got out of the room, i felt so breathless
dang it!

enough with the shock of the very big boss' appearance
yesterday, i got a call from korea
which made me jaw dropped all day
and this korean potential client really insist to talk with me
i never thought of having the chance to talk to him
since for the last few weeks i've been entertaining him over e-mail
but that chance really put my PR ability on test
but the conversation was great
and still i have to keep the business ties with them intact
that is enough giving me aches

i met quite a lot people this week
even met the shareholders
and other investors
and i was asked to negotiate with other investor and shareholders on some matters
i was appalled
shaken but being handed the job is such a pleasure

anyhow...
i am still waiting for the confirmed date to go outstation
not going that far
just to tanjung manis halal park for ground breaking ceremony
which has been chocking all of us up this few weeks
all of the things been going around had been such an adventure to me
it's fun

keep it up me!

-new week-

yiiippppeeeee~~~~!!!!

i don't know why i should be excited and thrilled on this very monday
i mean...
it's monday
who is on this planet adore and love monday so much aight?

but i am kinda excited today
for i had a call from my very own adorable and lovable blue lion
(yes enchek kamal...do be dissapointed. he CALLED ME and NOT YOU)

though i was bit weary last night
but that 2 minuted call was all that i need to make this day a fabulous one

okay...enough with bragging
let me update bits and pieces, here and there
i arrived early to the office today
eager to start work
but was shattered within moments because the wireless internet is not yet switched on
but heck~~~
not a problem for me since i have like 5-6 papers to read through (my work from last week actually) and publish an executive summary from it
i was going to be indulged in reading when suddenly i have internet access
so here i am rambling and bragging about stuff

anyway...
i have to cut stories short
the boss is in the meeting room
so i am at the moment is typing this entry with a serious look on my face (so that he thinks i am such a dedicated trainee)
ngeeee~~~~

now i need to chop-chop
until later...i'll ramble some more

-comeback-

phew~~~~
it is almost a week since my last entry
it's not that i abandoned my lair intentionally
i was so caught up with piles of work in the office
that i have not got the chance to escape to my virtual lair

i've been craving to write up an entry or two in the last few days
now that i finally have the time
why not i update few things here and there

early this week we entertained a client from taiwan
it is so much fun that i asked too much question
couldn't help it because their products are so interesting but then expensive!
and ever since they flew back to taiwan
i was left behind by numerous assignments
in which differ day by day
and oh...
not to mention
the assignments kept on bombarding me unconditionally
not that i complaint but the stress really made its toll on me
almost half of the staff in office came up with flu
bis boss is worried since H1N1 made its appearance in sarawak lately
but i'll survive another day

anyway,
i've been busy myself
assisting the company's accountant
dealing with numerous machineries suppliers and manufacturers
i've become the important bridgeway between the company and the dealers,suppliers,manufacturers of some sort
it feels like a huge boulder is being placed on my tiny shoulders
and AT THE SAME TIME
i also have to prepare executive paper on tilapia fish farms standards
i have loads of papers to read through and SUMMARIZED
wish me luck on that
and oh ya~~~
i have one proposal to be perfected
that...in my waiting list

whoa~~~
it is such a relief, pouring all here
well, i still have papers to read through
will get back when i have the time

note: devastated for i managed to infect my 2 weeks old lenovo with trojans! T_T

-tekanan-

saat ini aku merasakan sedikit tertekan
tekanan dan stress sedikit sebanyak mula datang menyinggah
barangkali saja untuk menyapa aku

oleh kerana tekanan yang tidak segan silu datang bertandang
maka aku perlu lari ke ruang aku ini untuk menghalau mereka pergi
agar leher aku tidak tegang
dan jiwa aku tenang untuk teruskan dengan urusan

ada dua penyebab utama tekanan aku hari ini
pertamanya ialah urusan kerja di office
tekanan yang dirasa teramat sama tika menyiapkan kerja-kerja plant design semester lepas
kerana kerja yang aku perlu uruskan sekarang adalah hal ehwal kerja yang sangat berkait rapat dengan plant design
aku sedikit lega kerana aku tidak perlu risau akan mass/mole balance
pun begitu
kerja-kerja cash flow bukan juga satu kerja yang mudah
ya...aku kini work closely with our accountant
well...she has the harder works
tapi aku cukup sakit jiwa untuk mencari dan revise kembali harga-harga machine dan equipment di pasaran
merasa sakit jiwa sehebat mana pun
aku masih mampu siapkan kerja-kerja yang diberi
cuma bila mana kerja-kerja diberi pada aku berturut-turut
keadaan itu bisa buat aku lemas
fortunately, i'm still alive

asbab kedua tekanan aku
encik singa biru aku hilang tanpa khabar
dan ya aku teramat risau
sekiranya anda di luar sana
mengenali encik singa biru kesayangan aku
sila sampaikan salam rindu aku
serta pesanan "sila hidupkan handphone anda pada tiap masa"
pada encik kamal...
sekiranya anda ada menemui encik singa biru KEPUNYAAN AKU
sila jaga batas anda ketika bersama dia
dan tak usah anda bersusah payah untuk membuatkan aku di sini cemburu
kerana aku tidak gusar kalau anda yang mengada
oleh kerana aku risau dan tertekan
silalah sampaikan berita ini pada encik singa biru

-chaotic-

chaotic
there is no other better word to describe today's atmosphere in the office
the office is such in a chaos mood all the way from this morning

want to know the almost detailed chronology?
well this morning i spent HALF AN HOUR in front of the office because the lady next door FORGOT to open the gate
then when we managed to get inside
i was about to settle down and proceed with my assigned SIX proposals that is supposedly to be completed by this week
but only after half an hour into my work
i was assigned a NEW task by my boss

then i ended up helping our accountant with the CASHFLOW
well of course i don't blame her
she just reported for work in this chaotic office earlier this week
and she only have some basic knowledge on the process and projects by this company
still i don't blame her because me myself is learning and adjusting too
so i managed to helped her through the machineries and equipments
and we did managed to complete the phase one cash flow
my plant design project helped me big time in these two weeks
all i need was brief explanation and off i go for information

well
my university did well in preparing myself to go through this journey
although i spent all those four years in resentment and complaining about various stuff
in a way i am thankful

*pat myself on the back*

-business plan-

yes i know~~~
i've learnt how to write up proposals and business plans before
i thought i have them all stored in my hdd and pendrives
but man i was so wrong

before i forgot on the points of what i should write in my logbook
i shall jot it down here

yesterday?
basically had nothing much to do
well of course i finished up my text for dr ray's speech
then i tried to finish up the shrimp proposal but i was too lazy to do them

today?
frankly...
i had nothing much to do since morning
then right after lunch a bunch of works are piled up for me
~sigh~
and all of them are PROPOSAL and BUSINESS PLAN!
now i have to join forces with my internship-mate to finish up all SIX proposals in both words and slideshow
how cool is that?
oh~~~
all of them are supposed to be handed in by the end of this week

but again...
since i was too shocked upon the tasks
i end up doing nothing until now
because i am so cramped with information
and what make things worst
all of the data and information are so haywire and all over the place
it feels like i have to place all of these 5000 pieces of huge jigsaw puzzle together

note:my brain is on a strike!

-new look!-

hi there you lots!
i've been wanting to refresh the look of my blog ever since i started it out here
but since i am not the computer savvy type and not to mention i have no whatsoever patience to "godek2" whatsoever gadgets available out there
my vision was left out right the moment i thought about it

now....
since i have the time (which is not suppose to be happening at moments like this)
i come to realize, this is the moment for me to make a reality out of that mere vision
and here it is
i wanted to make my own actually but again
my patience when it comes to "godek2" html,xml,codes and such had never been stable
but even so
this is some of an effort ya?
hope this new look is way more refreshing
i do welcome your critics, comments, bashes etc
i'm in an extraordinary good mood today

*wink*wink*

-monday blues-

no one can blame anyone for the monday blues fever

the assigned speech is not really 100% done
but since my boss is not around today
i really taking my own sweet time in finishing and refining it
after multiple attempts of refining the speech
i came to know nothing of what i'm trying to portray in the speech

anyway....
my main activity today?
finishing up the speech like hell
and of course
jollying around in the virtual world

dang~~`
this must be because of the speech thingy
i have no idea what on earth i'm trying to say in here
oh well...
some rambling of a drunkard it seems

note:god-damn-bored

-saturday is a working day-

it's saturday....
i know it is...
but i work on saturday as well

i came into the office today
feeling kinda vague because i am so sure it's weekend
but why am i here in the office?
well...world is harsh...
we have to face it

anyway
i got what i wished for
i am so responsible for dr ray's speech
>_<
very nerve wrecking task
i've been working on the speech for two days now
every now and then i counter check with dr chieng
still there are more to be improve and add
now my ideas are all sucked out clean
i am so out ideas of what to put in
dr ray is not an ordinary director of SPT
he is the FOUNDER, the GODFATHER in SPT
so yes!
it is very nerve wrecking!

i have at least another 2-3 days to complete the full text
since i am not such a writer and much of a talker
it would do great if you lots stop by and review, comment, bash and whatever on the text that i've completed as of now

Sea Party Technology Co. Ltd assisted by its six wholly-owned subsidiaries had envisioned to propel the Malaysian agriculture sector by investing in the Tanjung Manis Halal Park. Being the first one-stop Halal Park in East Malaysia for upstream and downstream Halal Food and manufacturing activities, it offers tremendous potential and opportunity to capture the increasing demand for halal products from both Muslim and non-Muslim markets globally.
Among of the anticipated projects proposed by Sea Party Technology Co. Ltd. and its subsidiaries which will cater the agricultural sector are the tilapia fish and shrimp breeding and hatchery as well as the chlorella production. The Integrated Biotech Aqua technology that we incorporate in our operation is highly capable in producing high value and quality marine fish and prawn.
The chlorella production especially has become a powerful material ever since its benefits were discovered. Being a very powerful cleansing and detoxifying agent for the body's health, chlorella is also a strong material to support the upstream and downstream processes here in Tanjung Manis.
With the support and intensives given by the Malaysian government, we are composed in localizing the technology from Taiwan in order to upgrade and enhance the agriculture and aquaculture sector in Malaysia. Malaysia is a blessed country with vast lands and stable in both economic and politic. The assistance given the government is a bonus point in ensuring good quality product.
Agriculture has been more intensive than before with new techniques for controlled production.With the transfer of technology from Taiwan, it is hoped that the proposed projects will alleviate poverty by increasing job opportunities and income levels in coastal communities. Our vendor programmes for example, had given the local coastal communities opportunity to be economically guaranteed. They will be given the proper assistance and training in fish and prawn farming so that they will be capable in producing good quality halal products. These vendor programmes also help in teaching the communities on breeding the fish and prawn though a biotechnological method.
It is known that halal products are products that are complied with the International standards. With such standards given to the products produced by Sea Party Technology Co. Ltd., our group is deemed in producing high value agricultural and aquaculture products to be commercialized into the international markets. Thus manpower is an important part of agriculture competitiveness.
Not only that, we are fairly composed in becoming a vital role-player in the marine aquaculture industry in Malaysia and wanting to ensure the sustainable supply of quality seafood which meets the International certification of food safety.
Furthermore, our projects are eco-friendly and maximize productivity with minimal disturbances to the environment is a proof of our continuity efforts on sustainable development and Earth’s preservation.
Based on these objectives and determination, we hoped that we will be Malaysia's pioneer producer in good quality halal products produced with the aid of biotechnology. Apart from that, we are aiming to capture not only domestic market but the International market as well. With the technology aid from Taiwan, professional supports from National Taiwan Ocean University and assistance by the Malaysian government, we are composed that our projects are capable in upgrading and propelling the agriculture sector.

-type-type-type-

yeahaa~~~~
another day went by
i was about to finish up my shrimp proposal at least halfway through today
but i think dr chieng forgot that he assigned me the to finish up the proposal
he later asked me to write a minutes from THEIR meeting yesterday!

i was puzzled when he asked me to do so
i didn't even attend the meeting you see
but since his secretary has just started her duty so she wasn't that sure on how to write up one
i guess i owed my skills in writing up minutes to mr ramlee and md zurina for teaching me good
ohohohohoho~~~~

now i am supposed to continue my not-even-halfway-through proposal
but i have to reset my head all over again
to pick up whatever shrimp information i left this morning

with all that done
i have to keep my sanity cool
freezing up in this dead cold office had really taken its toll on me
now i have to juggle my works and cold
i even stopped by the pharmacy to get some pills
things just don't get any interesting than this aight?
do wish me recover in a blink of an eye

p/s: i really want to do dr ray's speech for the ground breaking event.... >_<

-the fisheries the pictures-

there are lots of other pictures
but these are enough right?
just so to give you the ideas how i managed to go through the place

-the fisheries-

it is only my third day here
but i am so caught up the hectic situation
i thought i am going to suffer from a great boredom in my first week here (as what my sister told me)
but hell she was so wrong about the boredom
i am already in a heap of work here babe!

as i entered the office today
helped kak biya to sort out some documents for dr chieng's meeting
and continued finishing up the proposal on agriculture
then out of the blue
dr chieng came in and said "three (me,nura and timi) of you..off to fish farm at 1030"
i was startled for a moment
took me a good 2 minutes to figure out his orders
then it hit me
i am so wearing my HEELS today!
and didn't he just said fish farm?!

i took another 10 minutes to gather all of my souls that suddenly puffed out of me the moment i realized the heels thingy
then i just go up to dr chieng and said "you'll see what girls from ump can do with heels at the fish farm"
then off we go
i was supposed to take pictures of the fish farm and the fishes
but since i love cameras and the cameras love me
me and nura went cam-whoring for sometime

it has been an interesting day for me today
the not so interesting part is having to finish up a proposal on shrimp
yikes~~~
fishes in the morning
shrimp in the evening
a great start and end for a day huh....

you know what...
i think i just turned my lair into my internship logbook
oh~~~
don't get me mistaken people
of course i do my work
i only type on to ramble when i manage to finish a work
at least

okay~~okay~~
i'll continue my readings about the shrimps
let me just finish this one sentence

i will try to upload some pictures some other time

-first day-

ah-ha!
didn't i tell you lots that i will be back
just like arnold keep on coming back on the terminator
yeah~yeah~

here i am
safely reported myself to Sea Party Technology Sdn Bhd
my first morning went kinda boring
but one of the staff here is really chitty chatty and i loike~~~
i called her kak biya
the first staff i met this morning
did i not mention that i turned up early today
office hour is 830am-5 pm (my sis is so pissed of when she found out...out of jealousy of course)
me however....
turned up in the office like 810am or so
so had a little chitty chatty with kak biya until the big boss arrive

later at 9am
i had a little chitty chatty with dr chieng
i think he handed me some assignments and i was excited
but then it turns up that i only need to surf the net for whatsoever i can on chlorella and stuff
BUT what makes my day brilliant despite this light headache
i got to join all of the staffs to bintulu
there'll be halal hub ground breaking ceremony by PM
and i'll be off to bintulu from 26th to 30th JUNE
yeyeah~~~~

i have to dash now
i think i forgot to mention that the laptop i'm using right now
is the big boss's laptop
nggeeeeee~~~~~~~~

-break?-

people~~~
i will be flying to kuching end of this week
i have to prepare physically and mentally to start my internship
dang~~~
i do take these small details seriously
couldn't help it
i am a bit workaholic and sometimes perfectionist in what i do (sometimes okay)

because of this
i might not be able to scribble and rambling this and that virtually for some time
i am not quite sure myself when i can get myself online
but if there's opportunity,i shall grab it and make use of it
so do anticipate
because i have to jot down the working life scenery
i don't know why i need to
maybe just to get rid of whatsoever stress that might be clinging on me

so people
adios~~~

-HUGE mission-

tonight (early wee hours i must say)
there is this one HUGE mission
it is so HUGE that it has been giving me butterflies and grasshoppers along with those jittery and made me all fidgety

it is a long awaited battle
it is going to be a furious one
of course it is furious
it's a battle between the roman gods and the english devils
DANG IT!

fingers crossed
let none of the roman gods succeed in vanquishing the rage of the RED DEVILS!

yeah~~~
i am just being excited
and arrogant
teehhheeehheee~~~

-weather...gloomy-

i woke up today this morning
shivering and all wrapped up in my blankie
even wore my striking blue strips socks
it has been raining for 3 days in a row now
and it has been 3 morning in a row that i woke up to the sudden chill
some of the morning i woke up
only to find my half persian cat named 'sofia' all curled up on the pillow next to mine
nothing to complained about if her butt is not shoved into my face! (yes...she does that sometime)

there is something peculiar about this morning
still woke up to the sudden chill
all wrapped up in my blankie
with of course my striking blue strips socks
without 'sofia' all curled up next to me (thank god)
but i woke up with a heavy heart
feeling sullen
and to watch my mom's face early this morning
trying very hard to stay happy and all cheered up
it saddens me more
my heart bear this heavy feeling of sadness
that i can almost feel it is sinking further down

my dad left this morning
left for the 2 hours and 15 minutes of flight
across the sea, above the vast blue sky
he had no choice
he was pushed to the corner
WE were pushed all the way to the corner
he transferred
AGAIN!
after only 5 months settling down here in miri
he had to move again to KL
dang it!

and here we are
i didn't show it to all
but it saddens me
the thought of my mom and dad had to live away from each other
after all those years they were always side by side
it saddens me
because i know
my dad somehow feel he is incomplete without my mom beside him
he didn't say or show
but we know
my mom knows
there are times when we sat on the stairs in the evening few days before
my mom asked me out of the blue
''will he be able to eat on time?"
"what will he eat?"
"will he remember to take his medicine on time?"
"who will iron his shirt?"

those questions asked
were left unanswered because i am so incapable of answering them
i cried...
deep down inside i cried
all i ask is some strength so that i can support my parents
all i want now is some insane motivation
so that i can achieve my dreams i had always wanted by end of this year
so that i can replace my dad's position
as the sole breadwinner of the family
all i ask is that God Almighty give my parents the health and strength, physically and mentally
i want them to taste and relax the luxury that i promised myself to offer them

may this heavy cloud hurry dissipate
it's gloomy enough

-RED DEVILS!-

today is a celebration
CELEBRATION!
GLORY bebeh~~~~

can you just the smiles
on these red devils?
yes~~~
i am one PROUD red devil fan

fergie~~~
all hail to your great guidance for all these years
since this another big addition to your countless trophies and success
i hope you will continue to succeed and swipe 'em all

to the devils~~~
my fave had always and will always be Ryan Giggs
your suave move on the field had never ceased to amuse me
so keep on amusing me
s what if he's old to my liking

oh ya~~~
ji sung oppa~~~
i called you tornado
you ran up and down the field in a blink of an eye
you sure are equipped with turbo engine with a NOS

all in all
we started this season kinda low and slow
but regardless the downs
i had never stop cheering for you lots
we end this season greatly
came back strong after losses
proved that our spirit is not that vulnerable to shatter

to end this
let me hear all the red devils cheer!
GLORY!GLORY!
GLORY!GLORY!
GLORY!GLORY!

-akademi fantasia?-

ladies and gents
forgive me
but i watched AF7 final concert all the way from the beginning till the end
i was forced to endure those hours in agony!

first of all
i have to clarify
i am NOT a fan of AF products/concerts/diaries/shows and whatsoever related to it
NOT even an inch/mL/cm whatsoever
BUT my parents and siblings
happened to be such a hard-core-die-hard-fans of AF
i was pushed into the minority corner
whom lost all rights to touch or even get near to the remote control

AGONY
i don't think there is a word suitable to actually describe
the hours of putting up with the concert
and to make things worse
the RED DEVILS had their FINAL match against arsenal tonight!
and not even a second i was given the chance to watch or catch a glimpse of the devils in action T_T

just imagine how my heart shattered when my friends texted me on their VICTORY
YAY!
ji sung oppa~~~giggsy~~~
although i missed your game
i was with you all the way
from that many years back till this moment
and for many years to come
GLORY!GLORY!

there's this one contestant in AF i called 'ulat bulu'
i have no where to escape
but to listen while typing
have mercy on me~~~~ T_T

-ceritera hari ibu-

-ini entri yang panjang...pastikan kalian benar-benar bosan saat ini-


10 mei
satu hari itu sudah berlalu semalam
hari ibu-ibu dirai

aku seorang yang tidak reti dan tolol
untuk mengucap kata-kata indah buat bonda tercinta
tapi ucapan hari ibu aku sampaikan jua
dan aku turut minta bonda berehat untuk satu hari itu

aku cukup senang dan puas
melihat bonda senang dan gembira
walaupun aku tahu
dia bersedih mengenangkan peneman jiwa dan raga nya
bakal berpindah nun ke tanah seberang sana
tapi aku puas bercerita agar masa senggang nya yang sesaat dua cuma itu
tidak dia layani rasa gundah gulana

namun di sebalik segala apa yang cuba aku tunjukkan
pada bonda
bahawa betapa aku sanjungi, sayangi dan hormati sang bonda
aku punya dua orang adik yang secara misteri nya
mengalihkan posisi akal fikiran dan otak untuk berfikir secara waras
yang mana ianya patut berada di kepala
secara magis nya telah berada di kepala lutut!

YA!
i am DANG IT pissed off!

ceritera ini
aku pohon bisa jadi panduan buat kalian
barangmana kalian bisa menghembuskan pada aku
kekuatan dan kebijaksaan untuk berbicara dengan saudara kandung aku ini

-adik yang umurnya 22 tahun (sila ambil perhatian pada umurnya)-

sudah hampir setahun menghabiskan pengajian di politeknik
dalam jurusan perhotelan dan katering (kalau aku tidak silap)
dan selama hampir setahun itu jugalah
dia bangga menjadi seorang penanam anggur yang versatil
dan pabila disuruh mula 'job-hunting'
mula menarik muka,memberi alasan pelbagai
segala apa peluang dicarikan bersungguh oleh bonda
segala apa bantuan diberikan oleh bonda
segala apa iklan peluang pekerjaan, laman web yang berfaedah, borang-borang yang diberikan oleh saudara mara
segala itu BONDA berikan,sediakan,carikan
tugas si adik sungguh mudah
hanya isi dan hantar!
itu pun si adik perlu dipaksa! (diulangi-DIPAKSA)
aku tanyakan pada si adik apa yang dia mahu sebenar-benarnya
katanya mahu sambung pelajaran dalam jurusan "sports, events and entertainment" (sila bertenang)
katanya itu satu cabaran,dia seorang yang versatil pelbagai,yang punya pakej untuk itu
sepanjang pentang kami bicara
dan kami dengarkan hujah masing-masing
kalian patut dengar hujahnya sekali (aku lupa mahu rekod)
sehari selepas hujahnya yang gah itu
bonda memintanyan untuk menelefon PTPTN untuk menanyakan hal penangguhan pembayaran balik
selepas dia memberikan segala apa buah fikiran (atau aku patut tukarkan buah lutut?erk...) pada petang sebelumnya
dia boleh mencebik muka pada bonda dan hilang segala hujah untuk berbicara pada pihak PTPTN!
DANG IT!DANG IT!DANG IT!
oh...in the end..it was ME who called PTPTN on HER behalf
dan dari saat itu
dia berjaya menjadi orang asing di rumah sendiri
tidak duduk makan bersama
tidak menjamah pun masakan bonda
itu yang buat aku merasa luluh
apatah lagi bonda
ya...dia seorang anak
yang sanggup berperilaku begitu

-adik yang umurnya 17 tahun-


anak bongsu
anak emas yang ditatang dengan penuh segala kasih
tapi tidak tahu apa itu hormat
tidak tahu apa itu mengenang jasa apatah lagi mendengar kata
bakal menduduki SPM tidak lama lagi
tapi lagi khusyuk menghadap kaca televisyen
dari menghadap buku
tiap saat yang dihabiskan di rumah
hanya satu jam sahaja diperuntukkan untuk belajar
tepat pukul 8 malam,masuk ke dalam bilik,handphone sentiasa di sebelah,buku-buku dihampar di atas tilam,setiap 5 minit berbalas SMS,15 minit sebelum jam 9,kemas-kemas buku,lagi 5 minit buletin utama habis,dia sudah berada di ruang tamu,memegang remote control
itu rutin (diulangi-RUTIN)
bila ditegur cara lembut oleh bonda
dibalas dengan suara yang tinggi
diberi jelingan setajam boleh
dan ya
dia seorang anak yang berani berperilaku sebegitu


aku seorang anak yang cukup degil zaman sekolah dahulu
kerana aku pernah membuat bondaku menitiskan airmata
mengenangkan perangai aku dahulu kala
membuatkan aku serik
cukup serik untuk berperilaku sebegitu lagi
aku sehabis daya menasihati adik-adik aku
agar jangan contohi aku
tapi sebagai seorang kakak
aku gagal kan?
kerana mereka sudah berani berperilaku sedemikian rupa
aku masih ingat rasa sebak dan sesal yang aku tahu
tidak akan surut dari hati
saat aku titiskan airmata bonda
dan kenapa mereka masih tidak nampak itu
mereka masih tidak sedar semua itu
pada umur begitu
seharusnya mereka tahukan
syurga itu di tapak kaki bonda
kerana anak buah aku yang umurnya baru 2 tahun seperti sudah tahu itu

ini bukan cerita indah
yang patut ada pada hari ibu bukan
aku punya rasa sesal itu
kerana aku tidak dapat menghadiahi bonda
hadiah yang menyenangkan

-holiday?-

few days into this so-called holiday
i have been kinda clueless these few days at home
i wonder why~~~

i am rather pleased
when my-soon-to-be-employer was reviewed in buletin utama TV3 two nights ago
i am eager to start though i have lots to learn in a month
my dad was rambling around about me choosing to go to that company
saying that it is not related at all with my course
well~~~
i prepared for that
and i needed that kind of rambling
it gives me the fuel to strive forward
yeps....
kinda freaky right
but critics are one of many things that motivates me

here at home
i have been busy
well....
i have to keep myself busy
so that i will not have that much free time
to feel down
and suffer from the i-missed-everyone illness
thank god we have this thing called internet
at least it made me feel that peninsular malaysia is a stone's throw away

-borneo-

after been away for quite some time from home
i am back
back to my homeland a last

it has been one full year
since i last went back for holiday
it feels refreshing
but that i am back
to have another rest
for a little while

i will be facing yet another challenge
another phase in life
which i hope
i am able to encounter well

i shall unleash the wild me
so that the world can see
that i have the gems and potentials

p/s:this is truly an ad-hoc rambling of mine.being excited and ecstatic back at home had urge me to ramble whatsoever i can

-sepi-

sepi
sunyi
pilu
sayu

semua rasa itu mula datang menjengah
sudah mula datang menyinggah
segala rasa itu sudah mula menziarah

segala benteng kekuatan emosi yang aku kumpulkan
dan kukuhkan selama berminggu
hancur dan ranap begitu sahaja

segala rasa itu
yang telah aku cuba lenyapkan dari pangkalan data emosi
tanpa segan silu kembali muncul

begitu rapuh kubu airmata
tatkala bibir lafazkan
"selamat tinggal dan moga maju jaya"
begitu goyahnya rasa hati
tatkala kata-kata selamat meluncur keluar

tapi semua itu sudah jadi adat resam bukan
bilamana ada satu pertemuan
sudah termaktub dalam ceritera nya
akan ada perpisahan
cuma terpulang pada barisan aktor nya
untuk hadapi dengan kental

segala apa rasa yang sudah mula dirasai minggu ini
tidak akan bisa lenyapkan segala apa yang pernah dikongsi selama pertemuan di tanah UMP
baik yang gembira dan yang sedih
segala itu adalah rencah
yang pada di lain hari selang beberapa tahun
akan jadi satu bahan resepi
yang pasti diidamkan sekalian kita

salam selamat
dan ucap maju jaya dalam perjalanan hidup kemudian hari dari aku
sebagai seorang sahabat,teman,kawan,rakan mahupun seseorang
yang pernah kalian kenal sejak 2005 dahulu

-C4101-

kita pernah punya dua semester
kita pernah ada dua semester
dua semester yang begitu penuh dengan segala apa drama
dua semester yang sudah pernah saksikan segala apa cereka

aku tidak punya prosa kata yang bisa gambarkan
segala apa yang dikongsikan selama dua semester itu
aku tidak punya sesalan untuk dua semester itu
bahkan aku bangga
kerana aku dianugerahkan dua semester yang penuh dengan segala apa drama
dua semester yang penuh dengan segala apa cereka

untuk itu
aku berterima kasih
untuk itu
aku pasti akan rindukan kalian
kerana dua semester itu
di C4 101

bekelah: yo nino~~~
you had always got my back
had always been the shoulder to cry on
had always been the greatest companion
throughout these four years we've known each other
we seem to have this scary mind relationship
when often we said the same thing at the same time
but it is so relieving
for you know what's on my mind even before i told you
your harsh and truthful comments and sentences are one of the things that i will always cherish
thank you for being there
thank you for the ups and downs
the twists and turns
and foremost...for putting up with me

pizza hut: yo makcik!
ahahahahahahaha
satu perkara yang membuatkan aku begitu teruja pabila menjadi teman sebilik kamu
adalah kerana kamu seorang yang suka memasak
dan aku suka makan
aku tidak pasti samada aku harus berterima kasih atau tidak kerana selama dua semester ini
kamu telah menaikkan berat badan aku
tapi masakan itu yang akan buatkan aku termimpi-mimpi kemudian hari
aku tunggu rumah terbuka anjuran kamu
kerana aku pasti datang untuk makan-makan lagi
ehehehehehe

C4101: ma' chek emma!
the evil mastermind for all of those crazy outings we had so far(the shawl she's wearing is mine)
masa yang agak singkat
tidak bisa halang kita untuk bersuka-ria dan meneroka genting
dan walaupun aku seorang yang gilakan kasut
aku masih ketinggalan jauh dari kamu yang punya segala apa kasut
untuk itu, aku dendamkan kamu (ngeeeee~~~~)
tapi untuk segala apa yang lain
aku cukup senang
kerana aku bisa lontarkan segala kata tanpa perlu beralas
dan terima kasih kerana menjadi teman bising dan riuh rendahkan bilik tika aku bosan

-memoirs-

2005-2009
it has been almost four years aye?
that four years really passed us by without us noticing it

the clock seems to tick away half a millisecond faster than it usually does

i've been pulling myself together to come up with a post like this
i sure spend some days to think
of what to type on
of what to ramble on
of what to mesmerize on
but it seems words are not worth to describe it all
then shall we stop the walk for a while?
to look back into those old days
and pick up the bits and pieces to ponder on
and look for the memoirs for us to cling on
or perhaps a reminder for us who seems to forget
that we've been there,done that,spent all those good times together

we begin with an appetizer perhaps? :) forgive the ever delicious satay...it's just that,it has been four years in pahang but still haven't step a foot in satay zul's place...DANG!

oh yeah~~~during the Aidilfitri celebration...when and where else shall we enjoy being surrounded by boys and act like those high school girls?

oh-ho...our hobbies..we love to jalan-jalan..and we went to some great sites didn't we not?

do say YA! to Yakult...i really loved the moment we were given those fresh Yakult...it really made me rushed to the comfy toilet


a pic with the bus is A MUST! i repeat...A MUST!

and like i said...we love to jalan-jalan...from bentong all the way to melaka

of course we toured the town and cam whored all the way

whenever there is a chance to cam whore, we cam whore all the way

ah-ha!this is a nostalgic piece...feel free to browse for your familiar faces here...awww....we were so young then aight?

i have lots more to share with
but i'll leave this hanging for the moment
i'll be back with some more
with the internet speed of this kind
i just cannot tolerate to be patient
waiting for the pictures to be uploaded

-H2O-

four years
it has been four years since i entered university
it has been four years i sighed to the same issues
it has been four years i am stressed over the same matter
four years!
four years for goodness sake!

i have to thank labuan matriculation college for prepping me for these horrendous four years
if not, i think i will be ranting on and on
blaming everyone that i can put the blame on
and all those geography lesson during high school taught me
that pahang is the biggest state in Malaya
rich with its water reservoir

four years ago i was hoping and jumping around with delight
when i got accepted into one of its university
thinking that its huge and large water reservoir would end my rendezvous in labuan
but hell!
i wish i was thrown back to that tiny island

for the past four years
the pattern did not change
a bit!
it will always be the final examination week
it will always be in the second semester
the reason had never once changed
the blame is always on the broken under maintenance pump
the duration had never been less than a day

this water crisis really has got its toll on me
i think my brain is not functioning well these past few days
i even dream of having a nice shower in a SHOWER
and that was my best dream ever!
how pathetic can that be?
and to make it even mind whooping
me and my room mates actually surveyed
half of the campus
no kidding me here
HALF OF THE CAMPUS
to look for a decent and clean toilet
with a running tap!

dear God
i thanked you for your greatest gift you granted me
patience and sanity

-drift-

it was 2 in the morning
in the wee hour
we were traveling in a car
racing through thick fog of LPT highway
overtook some buses

it is sure one experience i shall remember
at that very corner
into LPT highway
at an insane speed
i experienced drift
along with one complete 360 degrees turn
and i lived
and so the others

but damn my neck hurts
slight concussion
but i lived
we survived

-sudah berlalu-

it has been an intense week
in fact a tensed month
this early weeks of april
is one hectic one
so hectic that i couldn't even find the time to go home for a day or two

all in all
it was a great journey
a journey full of datelines and headlines
full of intense moments
in which i come to love,enjoy and might as well missed

dua projek akhir sudah beres
selesai dibentangkan
cuma kini tinggal untuk kerja-kerja di atas kertas
misi aku minggu ini
adalah habiskan segala kerja atas kertas
agar aku bisa pulang barang dua,tiga hari

akan aku rindu saat aku memaksa diri
untuk habiskan kerja seminggu sebelum tarikh akhir
satu kepuasan bagi aku
aku agak sedikit workaholic kebelakangan ini
patutkah aku risau?

-virtual insanity-

dear Jay Kay,

i am dying for you to know
that i am one of your zillions avid fans
for the charming voice of yours that keep on strumming in my ears
for the gorgeous hats you put on for almost every time you make an appearance
for the sway moves you performed
oh~~~
and not to forget
for your healing melody

now that you are coming to Malaysia
why is it that you have to perform in F1?
do you have any idea how much the good seats cost?
let alone the not-so-good ones
and do you know what makes things even dreadful for me?
i am a chemical engineering student
not from the electrical and mechanical department
what does that have to do with you being in F1?
because those god-damn lucky people from that two departments get to go to F1 for free!!!
why my dear Jay Kay why!!!

from,
your avid fan

-preparing for the test-

i really had a good laugh upon finishing this one
this is one hilarious poem
just imagine if one of my Prof enter the room
and start rambling and babbling on the topics that he will cover in the upcoming test
and not to mention all those that he mentioned are the topics we've never ever studied on!
ahahahahaha~~~
i'll be rolling on floors if any lecturers pull a joke like this in class

World's Hardest Test

Preparing today for the standardized test
our teacher said there was a lot to digest.
We'd have to divide by the square root of three
and learn to spell zygote, façade and marquis.

We'd need to play xylophone, trumpet and flute,
accordion, banjo, piano and lute,
recite all the capital cities by heart
and learn to take rocketship engines apart.

We'd have to speak Latin, Swahili and Greek,
learn nuclear fusion and fencing technique,
remember the fables of Persia and Rome
and crack all the codes in the human genome.

Then just when we thought that our heads might explode
from learning Chinese or dissecting a toad
she told us the very best thing she could say:
that she was just kidding; it's April Fool's Day.

--Kenn Nesbitt

-i started my day with this-

i'm feeling giddy today
not because of Anna Sui clutch i bought yesterday
thinking back in that, i haven't got my hands on the Anna Sui bag and the checkered wedge that i've been eye-ing since last week
but never mind
i'm feeling giddy today
let me tell you why

Please Don't Read This Poem

Please don't read this poem.
It's only meant for me.
That's it. Just move along now.
There's nothing here to see.

Besides, I'm sure you'd rather
just go outside and play.
So put the poem down now
and slowly back away.

Hey, why are you still reading?
That isn't very nice.
I've asked you once politely.
Don't make me ask you twice.

I'm telling you, it's private.
Do not read one more line.
Hey! That's one more. Now stop it.
This isn't yours; it's mine.

You're not allowed to read this.
You really have to stop.
If you don't quit this instant,
I swear I'll call a cop.

He'll drag you off in handcuffs.
He'll lock you up in jail,
and leave you there forever
until you're old and frail.

Your friends will all forget you.
You won't be even missed.
Your family, too, will likely
forget that you exist.

And all because you read this
instead of having fun.
It's too late now, amigo;
the poem's nearly done.

There's only one solution.
Here's what you'll have to do:
Tell all your friends and family
they shouldn't read it too.

ahahahahahahaha~~~
one hilarious,wacko,crazy author came up with this one hilarious,wacko,crazy poem
it's meant for kids
ain't i am counted as a kid as well?
ahahahahaha~~~~

kudos!
http://www.poetry4kids.com/poems
do visit for cracks of laughter

-a proud 23 trapped inside a 16 years old teen-

23
it is a beautiful number
no doubt whatsoever
it's just that
30/03/09 happened to be monday
i'd always kinda blue-ey on mondays
and various datelines and presentation and test awaits in few days to come
have mercy on me

*sigh*

the sigh is not because i feel old
i had always i'm that 16 years old teen from few years back
people would not believe i'm a gorgeous, ambitious 20+ lady when they meet me anyway

*proud*proud*

anyway
this is the last year i'm going to celebrate my day here in campus
i am going to miss these 4 years of procrastinating, lazying, pampering and such
i am going to miss all of the teases,jokes,critics,comments and such
i am going to miss everyone i met along the way

my hopes and wishes to celebrate my 23rd year in life:

• awe those at Sea Party Technology Sdn Bhd and make them beg me to stay (who do i think i am for them to beg?ahahahaha)
• pursue masters at National Taiwan Ocean University (make them send me...ahahahahaha!)
• oh~~~before i could go for these two...strike A for plant design and PSM and somehow excel in PME (Tn Haji...please have mercy on me...i know how to spend money,but to analyze its flow made me half sane)
  
• purchase Anna Sui clutch and at least one more handbag(see?i know how to spend well!)
  
• add booties and wedges into my shoes collection
• live my life to the fullest with determination,aims and dreams
• be the person who'll make my parents and religion proud and blessed by God Almighty
• walk down a steady and challenging path that leads to a steady life,maintain this relationship with the one and only 'blue lion'

i'll add some more if there's something on my mind
so this list will be a lot longer by the of 2009

*ngeeeee~~~~*

oh yeah~~

a huge,enormous, large thank you to those who wished me
i care not for the presents you shower me (if you are going to give me a pair of booties i'll be glad)
it's the thoughts that made me flutter
best wishes for you lots in the upcoming presentation

-the earth day-

had a little chit-chat with my supervisor earlier on today
discussing various issues
jumping off from final projects to industrial training to global warming to office politics

true that i have nil-zero-none-nothing experience whatsoever on office politics
true that i have no whatsoever pictorial view on office politics
but to see the effect it laid upon my ever-so-strict-highly-motivated-hardcore supervisor
made me wander all the way back to my room
and once i reached my room
i concluded office politics into my "causes of stress" list

yes...i have a list on possible causes of stress
why?
because i feel and look terrible and haywire all along when i'm stressed
since i am one of many beauty conscious young ladies out there
it is my priority to maintain my appearance in public

*grin*

anyway....
for the upcoming earth hour
i would like to share a song from cake (not edible okay so stop drooling)
hope you out there be more environment conscious
lead a healthy lifestyle (i know i don't really)
keep on strive to keep the environment as healthy as we are
every little things that we do really matters to Mother Nature

carbon monoxide by cake

Too much carbon monoxide for me to bear
Too much carbon monoxide for me to bear

Where's the air?
Where's the air?
Where's the Where's the Where's the air?
After car after bus after car after truck
After this my lungs will be so fucked up
I wish I was in that Mercedes Benz
Sealed away from my scents
I'd have the music high going 95
Too much too much too much too much

Too much carbon monoxide for me to bear
Too much carbon monoxide for me to bear
Don't you care?
Don't you care?
Don't you Don't you Don't you care?

After car after bus after car after truck
After this my lungs will be so fucked up
I wish I wasn't just a pedestrian
Breathing all this in
I look up at that grey sky
It makes me want to... (ohhhh)
Too much too much too much
Too much carbon monoxide for me to bear

-earth hour-

put aside negativity...let alone that feeling of suspicious
put aside the thoughts of hidden agenda
or the inner you saying the level of crimes and misbehave will definitely increase ten fold

this is only one of the little things we can do
to preserve Mother Nature
we are to be blame for all the environmental problems that we faced
we were the ones whom unearth the golds out of her
we were the ones whom put the hot blanket around her

one hour
for us to reflect
for us to give back
for us to contribute

this 28 March
830pm-930pm
one hour that is

i'm in
care to join?

www.earthour.org